My troubling heart

Its been two years, i tried to bury all my worries and emotions somewhere in the deepest corner of my heart!!!
It is starting unfold one by one!!!!
I know everybody trying to cope with my stressed and paranoid attitude!!
But my nesting instincts are growing stronger and stronger!
Mind is stagnated in a dark corner worrying about all possiblities!!!
God has given me second chance, i dont want lose thus.
I want to prove i can be a good mom and can protect my baby no matter what..
With or without others help, i will try to bring back my health and be strong for my baby..
I am not dependent anymore.
I aint take any shit what others say.
Today i promise to my baby, i will give the maximum protection against all the issues.
I will be there this time, i wont doubt my instinct.
St.Gerard protect me and my baby from all issues.
Give me the strength to handle all situation. Keep everyone healthy and safe.
I dont have tears left in my eyes and my heart is just holding for my steve..
Please dont make it break the last bit of it.
I wont care what others say about me or baby.
I wont let others control me.
I will follow my babies immediate need.
I least bothered about others comments.
I wont expect anything from anything from anybody.

God please give me the strength to fight all the odds.
Give ur ultimate protection to me and baby....

Unwrap the Kind-Heart!!!

Life teaches many things, good & bad...
To bring the best in the life , we need to balance it.
If you think certain people are bad, don't judge so fast.
Every Human has a kind-heart, which he/she will unwrap in one point of life.

I came across such a wonderful kind hearted persons in my life, #strangers # friends # coworkers #family.

Life makes u the selfish person , who u don't want to become.
Gone are the days, when we are carefree, relaxed and happy.
This money sucking urban life make ur brain work towards benefits than happiness.
We start judging people so fast, not even revealing the real person.
Showing kindness to strangers is important.
But most important is showing love & affection, for those surround you.

We should regret our self, when we

• we don't appreciate our husband/wife , parents or relatives.
• when we don't spend time/ call our friends & well wishers.
• when we are not there, when they need us the most.
• when we judging them, instead of just lending them our ears.
• when we act superior to others, when they are trying to help u.
• when we are not smiling at them, when u see them.

Life may have shown you, some people's real faces. It's ok try to forgive them.
After all, we are all humans, we make mistakes.
If you cannot forgive, just move away from them without any damage.

But remember, somewhere or someplace we depend on some body, try to accept it.
This machine cannot run alone.

Embrace the help u receive with gratitude.
Try to bring smile to those who cross in ur life.

Life is wonderful, when we appreciate it..

Love thy family!!!!!
Love thy friends!!!!
Love thy colleagues!!!
Love thy neighbors!!!!

Queue ... Must be the food is good!!!

Living in Singapore has teached me few things !!!

Clean city ,

Rule following people,

construction in the island ( you can see people dig here , dig there .. Which is. 24/7 365 days)..,

Tall hdb flats....

Multiculture...

Most most important thing....

FOoood COURT !!!

You cannot deny the fine dining which you will see in marina bay , raffles or changi ...

But truly if you want to taste the people food with budget !! Try food court!!!

I thank Singapore for introducing me to finest foods from different race & culture!!!

From food court !!!

If you see any long queue in Singapore ,  you can check it will be one of the below,

Apple released new iPhone !

Some Voucher or collections!

Taxi of course!

Bus stop!

Movie!

Pub!

Most important .... FOOD COURT !!!!

If you go in food court , you will see roughly 10 to 12 shops in an average !!!

Among the all , only one or two shop will be having the longesssst queue .....

Our mentality is ......

Woaaah the queue is long !!! The food must be good !!!

I like it coz...

We are trusting the unknown person judgment !!!

I have seen some people , they don't even see the shop but straightway join the queue ......(The shop owner will be happy)...

But this has another issue ....

The rest of the shops in the food court suffers a lot coz of this ...

If 40 % people queue up for one shop, only 1 out of 10 shop will prosper .

The rest 9 shops will be losing its customer.

This results in closing the shops !!!!

I can't say anything coz if the food is good there of course u will go there.

But try show some concern to other shops in the food court !! .........................

( you will be surprised.... They may got good food)

So let's try different cuisine which Singapore offers to us..... ;);) 

You may find surprise in

Veg bak kut tey!!

Or

Mixed rice

Or nasi lemak

Or nasi Briyani 

Or prata

Or frog leg soup 

I dedicate this post to those who try all race cuisine .....................

 

Headphone ride in MRT

People are wired ! I meant literally and figuratively! 

We are executing our  anger ,laughter , power whether to an angry bird or ninja fruit. 

To escape or relax or runaway to a sole world, where u are the winner or loser  without people judging you. 

We are getting frustrated or anger easily , thinking life is a game in iPhone !!

When we wired to the iPhone, we search a medium to express ourselves to a new world via games , music, Facebook, YouTube.

For example, you take a train ride from Changi Airport to Joo koon alone ,without any gadgets!! Or headphones !!

You will see in the train,

85% men or women , school students or office goers standing or sitting with heads down in the gadgets. 

Anytime we realise , 

How many times we miss out alighting stations?? Or bus stops ??!!! ;) 

Without a wired head , you will see

Rushing men & women with stressed face ,from office to home....

Staring old man or women , expecting someone to give them a seat....

People who stomp....

Children asking questions to their parents!!;) when u try to listen to them ah , it's really cute...

Jerking train when goes into the subway !!

Glooey teenage couples & bored married couples (where both will be wired)!!!

You will find the dressing difference from people who getting in raffles & joo koon !!

When alighting in raffles , you will see maximum guys in suit or formats with laptop bag & ladies in dress with Gucci or prada or LV !!

But while alighting in joo koon , you will see workers in uniform , girls in jeans or skirts. 

A single ride will show you different faces in the country with unique smile or anger or laugh or blush or stare.

Observe the humanity & nature inside and outside the train & enjoy it.

You will relax from your stress , will see a new world.

New MRT announcement!!!

Attention! Please do not use your headphone in train or station, give ur eye a break to see the alighting pessangers before boarding! Thank you..

Life will be interesting in this ride ;):):) 

How to.....?

Life has become user friendly with the help of google.

Everyone starts their life with lots of dream , doubts, discussions in their own mind. 

From childhood , we have listened to suggestion, guidance from  our parents,teachers, neighbours, friend, known relative, unknown relatives, taxi drivers even the person sit next to us in train or bus.

When u are till age 15, u will listen to guidance 80% , execute it to 100%. 

From Age 15 to 20 , u will listen 60% , execute it 40%.

But now story is different!! Invasion of Internet has changed the life!!!!

Grown up feeling is good & bad ! 

We wont go ask anybody , how to do this?  How to do that? what will happen? etc..,,,

So many questions will arise , what if they think I am not brilliant? what if i ask silly question?

Here comes our GOOGLE, YAHOO and other search engines.....

How to open a fridge ? Click " Search " 

You will get 1000 links.

How to get Married ? 

10000 links.

How to stop searching in google?

2000 links.

What happen if i die?  ...Ofcourse u know only if u die...:)

still got 1000 links.

Recently my friend had chest pain. 

They went doctor but not yet diagonised whether its a heart problem or lungs or some gas.

He gave some tablets to her. 

As soon as she told me she had pain.

First thing come in my mind is " Let me google it".

Our Mind is configured to google in a way it replaces our moms and dads?

Ofcourse not everything comes from internet is right.

But our mind is getting customised to google!!!!!!

Its good or bad, i dont know !!!!

But this addictions makes us think genius or clever.

May be we wish to show of to people that " I know it all "